She's really gone

I know Iv been preped for this for a week but it doesn't make it any easier! I don't know why I'm trying not to cry, I know I need a big emotional shower but I think I don't feel ready yet. 

I'm so tired as well which isn't helping and I have work tomorrow. And I have some of the girls coming to stay which is going to be a great distraction but right now I just need a massive cuddle, my dog, my mom and my bed! 

But as I won't be having any of those things Iv settled for colouring my time table in! Woopie!

And I really should start my lesson plan but I'm procrastinating massively! 

And I keep getting lovely messages or texts of concern from people which is literally making me titter on the edge!

Why I'm fighting the inevitable I don't know. 

I'm so sad she's gone and I'm so jealous of Sarah seeing all the people I love most in the world. But I'm really not jealous that's she's heading back to England I have most definitely not had my fill of China yet. And with the promise of the best year of my life a head how can I possible pass on that! 

Iv realised I'm just chatting crap now as another form of procrastination! Best get back to colouring x